But after the excitement comes the anxiety Do they remember me? Did I make an impression worth using neurons to imprint me into their brain? If they did remember me.. Did they like me? Was I an enjoyable person to meet? Would they like to relive it again? Was the connection we shared only in my mind and not theirs?
A romantic dinner for one. Shall I be relegated to the past like that person you used to know in high school.. That person you recognise but you can’t even remember what their voice sounds like.. Am I that person now?
They walk by, glancing at my face. With the same amount of enthusiasm one has for taking out the garbage
I stood there at the sink, scrubbing my spatula, occasionally glancing over at the fry pan. My French toast was humming as it cooked. I needed to turn it over and it was growing impatient. There was no way to do this until I finished cleaning the spatula though. My mind wondered, how much is this like our lives. My mind was with my toast though I was physically with this spatula. This spatula needed to be cleaned before I could get to my French toast, so why was I not concentrating on what was right in front of me? Why are we so preoccupied with an afterlife when we haven’t even thought about life yet.. We have the rest of nothing to contemplate what proceeds life.
“When we say things like “people don’t change” it drives scientist crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It’s always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It’s the way people try not to change that’s unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting things be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that’s up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again.”—Merideth Grey
Start anywhere you like. Tell me what places you went to, your favourite part and your least favourite. Tell me ALL about it. I WANT DETAILS.
Empire state building-Ice skating Rockafella Plaza-Times Square-Jazz Bands on the Subway-Random rap battle against people on the street-Underground rave in brooklyn-After party, people with guns-Fashion week-Meatpacking district-East Village-Soho-Greenwich Village-Lower East Side-Clubs-Columbia Dorms-Shaving Swedish Nurs’ head-Shopping-5th avenue-Home where roy lichtenstein wall papered the bathroom-Breaking onto roof, Party-Five leaves bar-Williamsburg
“He saw things in a way that others did not, so that a city I had lived in all my life seemed a different place, so that a woman became beautiful with the light on her face.”—Girl With a Pearl Earring, Tracy Chevalier (via fuckyeahliteraryquotes)